That Hard, Bizarre Thing #25d: “5 Reasons Why #4 & #5 – We Really Wanted a Friend & It Was Meant to be”

by Angela

(NOTE: Written about an experience in the past, does NOT reflect the present.)

Reason #4: We Really Wanted a Friend

During this time we had few friends, almost none, and didn’t hang out with anyone. So it was like a dream come true, to have a third person, to have a new friend who we could run around with and talk to and laugh with. There is nothing really deep in this reason, I mean, we continue to want friends. Feel free to submit your resume.

Reason #5: It was meant to be. 

This experience was supposed to happen exactly when it happened and exactly how it happened. We both knew this through the whole thing, even when it was hard. We were following a path, we listened to the cards, we listened to signs, we listened to our own intuition, and while it was winding and confusing and kind of horrible, it all led us to where we needed to be.

We were meant to be attracted to Girl, obsessed with Girl, broken with Girl, put through the wringer with Girl. We uncovered so many gaping holes within ourselves and within our relationship that needed healing, and feeling absolutely fucked (not in a good way), absolutely decimated, absolutely stupid, absolutely worthless, absolutely broken hearted, absolutely empty, it was the medicine. Like I’ve said, we needed everything we were to be burned to the ground so we could rebuild, heal, and become new. If given the choice to go back, I would do everything exactly the same. 

In Conclusion

Those are five of the reasons we had such a hard time letting Girl go. As you read and perhaps become increasingly confused as to why Girl continued to be in our lives, or why I ever wanted to see her again, ever, just come back to this post and go “Oh yeah. That’s why.” 

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